Vicious Circle

Am I the bad guy? Or am i the victim?

A great deal of people consider me the bad guy, the one who does the opposite of what hes supposed to do (thats not true!) and also the one who does not listen (some people say im a good listener, others say i'm not...people make up ur mind!!)...

People only see you superficially, but not for what you are...

And yet certain circumstances just make them keep seeing you that way...or worse. The good become better, the bad become worse. Vicious circle.

I consider myself as a victim caught in the middle. I need not explain why the one in the middle suffers the most, for that go to www.broken-memories-.blogspot.com for a more literal example.

Now as i was saying, i will not say that i did not do what i was supposed to do, if not i'd be lying to myself.

Ur never gonna believe this, they still claimed that I did not know what i was supposed to do...They also claimed that my side of the story was a lie. You see, these are the people who constantly tell others to tell the truth and the famous "LIARS GET STRUCK BY LIGHTNING" phrase. However, when they finally get the truth, they absolutely refuse to believe it! No, it couldnt possibly have been that way cos the results arent there, it had to be that he didnt do his job! Like how the hell do they come to a conclusion that i dont want to be at the top? Of course I did my job...

O well, no one ever said that intelligence was a survival trait.

You wouldnt think that such people are so contradictory. Yet there are many amongst us right now. Maybe i might turn into one of them.

At least I'm satisfied that I have done my job, the majority feel that I have done so, yet this majority is rather insignificant to me. It is the minority which bothers me. The minority which I consider can understand me most. I did my job, I just didnt do it well enough cos every job has a technique to it. Its a vicious circle, those who have the technique do better with less effort. Those without the technique do better even with more effort. Then those others who always love to contradict themselves then claim that those who have the technique are actually the only ones doing their job and that those without the technique arent doing any (and they dont even know that such techniques exist...why not they get their facts right first before criticising).

Effort does not equal technique, I learnt it the hard way.

I'm the victim of a vicious circle. Someone please help me. If only someone truly understands...

It isnt fun being the one putting in all the effort in vain...

Someone please understand...

It isnt fun being caught in the middle of a vicious circle...

Someone please understand...

I'm sick at being in this position for a very long time...

Someone please understand...

and help me...

If only...