Friday, July 25, 2008

Doesn't Matter

It doesn't matter how smart you are...how capable you are...how skilled you are...how powerful you are...how fit you are...etc

...if you use your gifts and talents to satisfy your arrogant desires...

I'd rather be the one who can excel on a good day rather than the one that can excel when everyone is having a bad day...The former is based on personal skill while the latter is based on luck and negativity...

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Disappointing

I will not be going for the Singapore Grand Prix...Long story...

I did not perform as well as I could have for the vectors test due to a migrane (lose concentration totally)...

Theres 68-69 days left to exam...

To be on par with the front runners, I have to put in to the equivalent of 10 exam revision weeks...

Hope I dont disappoint myself or anyone else... again...

It's not just me that disappoints. Some others disappoint to. Will post on it later on...

Saturday, July 19, 2008

New Face 2008

No, not the competition to see who looks better lol...

I'm planning to give my room a "new face"

Yes, my room is gonna get a new look by the end of this year...

There will be 3 phases (no pun intended) for operation New Face 2008.

Phase 1:
Room clearing
September holidays/November holidays

Phase 2:
Buying the new technology
November holidays

Phase 3:
Redesigning the room
November holidays - December holidays

Yes...3 phases...The aim to transform my room into my perfect e-learning centre in preparation for the 2009 IBDP examinations.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Oh yes...I forgot...

Thanks those who stayed awake with me till now, doing all sorts of stuff for me...

I like the entertainment yea...

Esp when I would just drop dead anytime if I continue to bot approach...

It's ok if I havent been dotaing for the past few days...somehow stars shine brighter at night dont you agree...

Well yes stupid...cos stars dont shine at all in the day huh...

If only stars shine in the day as well...it'll be so much easier...

My love, hope you're reading this...Hope you tag too...
Closer

Hypothesis : The closer you get to something, the more you know about it...

Yes that is true...for MOST examples...

The closer I get to some people, the more I realise their rationale in doing things...

On the outside, some things might look stupid. However, take a closer look and you might just be amazed...

I hope the hypothesis applies to the final exams as well. The closer I get to it, I HOPE the more I will know about it...yes now 72 days away...

I do wonder if the reverse of the hypothesis is true. The more you know about something, do you get closer to it?

Do they happen on a concious or subconcious level?...

I have no idea...Perhaps a mix of both...

Perhaps the closer I get to it, the more i know about the answer. Or perhaps the more I know about the answer, the closer I get to it.

So dear, would you like to be SEEING my NICE HEX and RUN?

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

74

The bus number i take...

The number of days left to finals...

I want this term to be the term where by whole year starts again...In terms of relationships, academics and personal development...

Yes...I hope it all restarts this term...

A new beginning yea...and a chance to defy all those do not believe in me...

I did it last year...I did it the year before...I can do it again...

Some people ask "what is 7 x 4?"

My reply,"it means I'm gonna get four 7s for my finals!"

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Birthday Greetings (For July 1)

Thanks everyone for your birthday greetings! I'm gonna put them here not by any specific order. Won't show the names of everyone:D

here's a pre-birthday 'happy birthday' to you haha

hahah okays happy birthdya in advance yeah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Hey! Happy birthday! Have a great day today. Was good seeing you yesterday.

Happy Birthday. Sorry we cant celebrate yr bday with u today. Wishing u many good health and happiness, & may uhv all the good things u wish for. Lotsoflove from

Happy birthday! Hope you have a great time! See you in a few days!

Happy birthday:DHaha in the end i never woke up!anyways happy 17th birthday you old man!:D

Happy birthday =)

Happy birthday :)

Oh today arh. Happy bdae.

Ok thanks:-). Happy birthday!

Happy Birthday. Have a great year ahead. Love,

Oh yea. Happy Birthday.

yo happy birthday.

Happy belated birthday.

eh know its late and over in 20 mins but happy birthday to you!

Ok that should be more or less about it. If I missed any of you out, Do tell me!

Oh and not forgetting all the lovely birthday cards as well! Thanks everyone!
One More Day

Looks like its just one more day to getting my results. Just realised that no matter what happens, I shouldnt feel too sad about it cos...it's just mid year! Haha...even if I do badly, I must remember that I have a tradition of screwing up mid years. If I'm last in class, it's nothing that bad cos my class is afterall the top class in the level (lets not count 5.1 shall we).

It is strange that when exams end, we just get busier with work. Anyway, I did get to DOTA a bit today (or should I say yesterday). Nothing beats beating a group of friends who have the "perfect (not perfect cos they got beaten)" combo with just my babey and myself! Two people working together with great coordination can easily outlast a team of 5 that cant work together.

Anyway my goals for finals : Four 7s.

Perhaps it'll be Bio, Econs, Math, Chinese...

I know CMI, but at least can try la! Doesnt really hurt to try!

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Nothing beats...

The emoness of post enjoyment with overseas relatives period combined with the pre exam result period and the post ferrari got beaten by Lewser Ramiltoff period combined with pre/post exam homework (we seem to be getting lots of it whether exams are on or not) combined with doing a ToK reflection on emotion...

Dat's how it feels like to be me...

For now...

Monday, July 07, 2008

Thankful

I'm rather thankful that today is a holiday. As Kaisiang says, this is the second stage of hell. Well, it's even more hell for me. Yesterday on 06/07/08 (nice date), my relatives from England had to go back. Well, even though I didnt spend much time with them in the June hols, it was a lot more than last year (DUH, COS ITS THE JUNE HOLS!). It's really sad to see them go, like a part of myself leaving. Come to think of it, just 24 hours ago, I was having a meal with them at terminal 3. Seeing relatives off at terminal 3 is really sad...Hope they have a safe journey home!

Yes, not just the awaiting exam results leads to the second stage of hell, but also the homework. IOP essay, Vectors Test, ChineseWOW homework, Econs IA, ToK essay, ToK reflections. Is there any more? I hope not.

But yea, being optimistic, I have to be thankful for the holiday today...it couldnt have come at a much better time...If I go to school today, I think you guys will see me cry...

Thursday, July 03, 2008

A David amongst Goliaths

Thats how I feel now...for later today...A small person trying to overcome many big problems...with a broken rifle butt, a totally different shooting suit, whatnot?

From 1 Samuel 17
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1+Samuel+17

1 Now the Philistines gathered their forces for war and assembled at Socoh in Judah. They pitched camp at Ephes Dammim, between Socoh and Azekah. 2 Saul and the Israelites assembled and camped in the Valley of Elah and drew up their battle line to meet the Philistines. 3 The Philistines occupied one hill and the Israelites another, with the valley between them.
4 A champion named Goliath, who was from Gath, came out of the Philistine camp. He was over nine feet [a] tall. 5 He had a bronze helmet on his head and wore a coat of scale armor of bronze weighing five thousand shekels [b] ; 6 on his legs he wore bronze greaves, and a bronze javelin was slung on his back. 7 His spear shaft was like a weaver's rod, and its iron point weighed six hundred shekels. [c] His shield bearer went ahead of him.
8 Goliath stood and shouted to the ranks of Israel, "Why do you come out and line up for battle? Am I not a Philistine, and are you not the servants of Saul? Choose a man and have him come down to me. 9 If he is able to fight and kill me, we will become your subjects; but if I overcome him and kill him, you will become our subjects and serve us." 10 Then the Philistine said, "This day I defy the ranks of Israel! Give me a man and let us fight each other." 11 On hearing the Philistine's words, Saul and all the Israelites were dismayed and terrified.
12 Now David was the son of an Ephrathite named Jesse, who was from Bethlehem in Judah. Jesse had eight sons, and in Saul's time he was old and well advanced in years. 13 Jesse's three oldest sons had followed Saul to the war: The firstborn was Eliab; the second, Abinadab; and the third, Shammah. 14 David was the youngest. The three oldest followed Saul, 15 but David went back and forth from Saul to tend his father's sheep at Bethlehem.
16 For forty days the Philistine came forward every morning and evening and took his stand.
17 Now Jesse said to his son David, "Take this ephah [d] of roasted grain and these ten loaves of bread for your brothers and hurry to their camp. 18 Take along these ten cheeses to the commander of their unit. [e] See how your brothers are and bring back some assurance [f] from them. 19 They are with Saul and all the men of Israel in the Valley of Elah, fighting against the Philistines."
20 Early in the morning David left the flock with a shepherd, loaded up and set out, as Jesse had directed. He reached the camp as the army was going out to its battle positions, shouting the war cry. 21 Israel and the Philistines were drawing up their lines facing each other. 22 David left his things with the keeper of supplies, ran to the battle lines and greeted his brothers. 23 As he was talking with them, Goliath, the Philistine champion from Gath, stepped out from his lines and shouted his usual defiance, and David heard it. 24 When the Israelites saw the man, they all ran from him in great fear.
25 Now the Israelites had been saying, "Do you see how this man keeps coming out? He comes out to defy Israel. The king will give great wealth to the man who kills him. He will also give him his daughter in marriage and will exempt his father's family from taxes in Israel."
26 David asked the men standing near him, "What will be done for the man who kills this Philistine and removes this disgrace from Israel? Who is this uncircumcised Philistine that he should defy the armies of the living God?"
27 They repeated to him what they had been saying and told him, "This is what will be done for the man who kills him."
28 When Eliab, David's oldest brother, heard him speaking with the men, he burned with anger at him and asked, "Why have you come down here? And with whom did you leave those few sheep in the desert? I know how conceited you are and how wicked your heart is; you came down only to watch the battle."
29 "Now what have I done?" said David. "Can't I even speak?" 30 He then turned away to someone else and brought up the same matter, and the men answered him as before. 31 What David said was overheard and reported to Saul, and Saul sent for him.
32 David said to Saul, "Let no one lose heart on account of this Philistine; your servant will go and fight him."
33 Saul replied, "You are not able to go out against this Philistine and fight him; you are only a boy, and he has been a fighting man from his youth."
34 But David said to Saul, "Your servant has been keeping his father's sheep. When a lion or a bear came and carried off a sheep from the flock, 35 I went after it, struck it and rescued the sheep from its mouth. When it turned on me, I seized it by its hair, struck it and killed it. 36 Your servant has killed both the lion and the bear; this uncircumcised Philistine will be like one of them, because he has defied the armies of the living God. 37 The LORD who delivered me from the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear will deliver me from the hand of this Philistine." Saul said to David, "Go, and the LORD be with you."
38 Then Saul dressed David in his own tunic. He put a coat of armor on him and a bronze helmet on his head. 39 David fastened on his sword over the tunic and tried walking around, because he was not used to them. "I cannot go in these," he said to Saul, "because I am not used to them." So he took them off. 40 Then he took his staff in his hand, chose five smooth stones from the stream, put them in the pouch of his shepherd's bag and, with his sling in his hand, approached the Philistine.
41 Meanwhile, the Philistine, with his shield bearer in front of him, kept coming closer to David. 42 He looked David over and saw that he was only a boy, ruddy and handsome, and he despised him. 43 He said to David, "Am I a dog, that you come at me with sticks?" And the Philistine cursed David by his gods. 44 "Come here," he said, "and I'll give your flesh to the birds of the air and the beasts of the field!"
45 David said to the Philistine, "You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the LORD Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. 46 This day the LORD will hand you over to me, and I'll strike you down and cut off your head. Today I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds of the air and the beasts of the earth, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel. 47 All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the LORD saves; for the battle is the LORD's, and he will give all of you into our hands."
48 As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet him. 49 Reaching into his bag and taking out a stone, he slung it and struck the Philistine on the forehead. The stone sank into his forehead, and he fell facedown on the ground.
50 So David triumphed over the Philistine with a sling and a stone; without a sword in his hand he struck down the Philistine and killed him.
51 David ran and stood over him. He took hold of the Philistine's sword and drew it from the scabbard. After he killed him, he cut off his head with the sword. When the Philistines saw that their hero was dead, they turned and ran. 52 Then the men of Israel and Judah surged forward with a shout and pursued the Philistines to the entrance of Gath [g] and to the gates of Ekron. Their dead were strewn along the Shaaraim road to Gath and Ekron. 53 When the Israelites returned from chasing the Philistines, they plundered their camp. 54 David took the Philistine's head and brought it to Jerusalem, and he put the Philistine's weapons in his own tent.
55 As Saul watched David going out to meet the Philistine, he said to Abner, commander of the army, "Abner, whose son is that young man?" Abner replied, "As surely as you live, O king, I don't know."
56 The king said, "Find out whose son this young man is."
57 As soon as David returned from killing the Philistine, Abner took him and brought him before Saul, with David still holding the Philistine's head.
58 "Whose son are you, young man?" Saul asked him. David said, "I am the son of your servant Jesse of Bethlehem."


Important points to note
http://christianity.about.com/od/biblestorysummaries/p/davidandgoliath.htm

"David chose not to wear the King's armor because it felt cumbersome and unfamiliar. David was comfortable with his simple sling shot, a weapon he was skilled at using. God will use the unique skills he's already placed in your hands, so don't worry about "wearing the King's armor." Just be yourself and use the familiar gifts and talents God has given you. He will work miracles through you.

David's faith in God caused him to look at the giant from a different perspective. Goliath was merely a mortal man defying an all-powerful God. David looked at the battle from God's point of view. If we look at giant problems and impossible situations from God's perspective, we realize that God will fight for us and with us. When we put things in proper perspective, we see more clearly and we can fight more effectively.

When the giant criticized, insulted and threatened, David didn't stop or even waver. Everyone else cowered in fear, but David ran to the battle. He knew that action needed to be taken. David did the right thing in spite of discouraging insults and fearful threats. Only God's opinion mattered to David."

Therefore I put my entire trust and faith into God's hands, as God's will be done.

Coming to think of it, the weapon I'm using is a gun. Whether broken or not, still better off than stones.

Either way, it doesn't matter for that is all human persepctive. Only God's perspective matters. I'm but a tool made perfect when in God's hands.